I'm going to the district competition for Soils Evaluation in FFA tomorrow, but I think I might fall apart before I make it there!

Last night I dreamt about my study card, and I woke up mumbling about soil textures and slopes! The worst part is, I memorized every detail on my notes, and for the life of me i can't remember any of it! I've been studying nonstop, but its gotten to the point where my hands are shaking and I can't talk sense to anybody; my mom just asked me if I've been using drugs! I know I shouldn't get so worked up, but I can't help it! I keep having to stop myself from grabbing my notes and going at it again, because I know that I need to calm down and compose myself a little!

Sorry I'm rambling, but I really need the distraction so I don't end up in a psych ward. For anyone who read all the way through this, thanks, and I'm sorry I spent this entire journal talking about my poor, pathetic self. I know this doesn't even begin to redeem my selfishness, but I would love it if everyone would tell me how they've been doing; it seems like i haven't talked to any of you in ages!

Alright, sorry and thanks again, I love you all,

~Manda